Chosen

Our Father has led me to this today:  My Utmost for His Highest  ~ Oswald Chambers   August 4th  

“THE BRAVE COMRADESHIP OF GOD

“Then He took unto Him the twelve.” ~   Luke 18:31

The bravery of God in trusting us! You say – “But He has been unwise to choose me, because there is nothing in me; I am not of any value.” That is why He chose you. As long as you think there is something in you, He cannot choose you because you have ends of your own to serve; but if you have let Him bring you to the end of your self-sufficiency then He can choose you to go with Him to Jerusalem, and that will mean the fulfillment of purposes which He does not discuss with you.

We are apt to say that because a man has natural ability, therefore he will make a good Christian. It is not a question of our equipment but of our poverty, not of what we bring with us, but of what God puts into us; not a question of natural virtues of strength of character, knowledge, and experience – all that is of no avail in this matter. The only thing that avails is that we are taken up into the big compelling of God and made His comrades (cf. 1 Cor. 1:26-30). The comradeship of God is made up out of men who know their poverty. He can do nothing with the man who thinks that he is of use to God. As Christians we are not out for our own cause at all, we are out for the cause of God, which can never be our cause. We do not know what God is after, but we have to maintain our relationship with Him whatever happens. We must never allow anything to injure our relationship with God; if it does get injured we must take time and get it put right. The main thing about Christianity is not the work we do, but the relationship we maintain and the atmosphere produced by that relationship. That is all God asks us to look after, and it is the one thing that is being continually assailed.”

Our Father is not just touching my heart this morning, but is pounding on it!  He is pounding on it  and I feel inadequate to explain the feelings of my heart and my head though I’m going to try, dear friends!

For so much of my life, I’ve believed that I had all the answers.  I believed, though I loved God, that I knew what was right for me, my family, my friends.  I thought He had enough helpers.  I thought there was nothing in me that could help Him.  I felt that I was of no real use to Him.

My “real” world was not as it seemed to others.  I had a “secret” world;  a world that I tried to control, a world of chaos.  I prayed for my will, not His will.  I followed Him with words, not deeds. I thought He didn’t choose me, but I chose Him.  I didn’t believe His plan but that He just watched over me.  I followed Him in childish ways, thinking that I could control my life and the outcome of my situations.

Then, in one night, He brought me to the end of what I could do myself.  He sent my world crashing down around me.

He brought me to my knees, so there was nowhere else to turn but to Him.  He broke me, so I would need His loving arms around.  He let me fear, so He could lead me out of that fear.  He showed me that I can not control anything by my own will but He could control everything by His.  He did all this so He could build my life back His way.

That night was the end of my childish ways.  It was the night I knew in my heart, my mind, my soul; that God chose me, that I am His child.

That night I saw, with my own eyes, God’s protection for my children and I.  My son could have been severely injured that night but he was not.  We could have been killed that night but we were not.  That night I knew, without a doubt, that God’s word is true and right.

As I struggled to begin a new life, to make new choices, I saw God opening doors right and left for me.  He walked me through court proceedings, giving me strength.   He held me, giving me comfort during long,  dark, scary nights.  He held me up so I could move forward instead of staying in the cloud that I felt over me.  He provided when I thought I was at the end.  He led me to a new home when I believed that wouldn’t be possible.

I came to Him in everything from that night forward.  I wanted His will for my life, not my own.

When I speak of those times, I am in awe of all our God has blessed me with.  I saw, I felt, all His love for me.  Each day I want to know, to learn, to be more in Him because I know of His power, His greatness…there is no words to really explain our God, no words that can adequately express how truly amazing and wonderful He is, in all things.

I’ve learned that God chose me, loved me since the beginning of time.  It isn’t until I chose Him that I began to grow in Him.

I thank God every day for that night.

 

Chosen

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2 thoughts on “Chosen

  1. So thankful and grateful for the work that He is doing in you! What a journey you have been on.

    This is an encouragement to me, to look for His hand in all of the lean, difficult and scary times, and seek His will through it all, learning to lean in close and trust His heart.
    Blessings, Donna.
    Lyn

  2. 🙂 I find it difficult to not look back on that time of my life. Friends and family say to let that night go and move forward. I try to explain how important that night was to me…it was a blessing.

    How can you not look back on your blessings?

    I have been blessed in more ways than I had ever imagined since that night. Blessed with the gift of God. Blessed with gift of the love of my life. Blessed with a new life filled with HIm. Blessed with the knowledge that no matter what God holds me.

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